tbt (8.10.2015)

I just love this photo!
We were playing in the park, me, my nephew and my bf.
And Ukko's kettlebell.

Happy Birthday, Marika!

It's my sister's birthday today. And, yes, it's also Mother's Day.
My sister was born on Mother's Day. I don't know how often it happens that her birthday is celebrated by all the moms out there. Let's celebrate it now, then. And, yes, the Sun was shining when my sister arrived this world - just like today. So, pretty much nothing has happened ever since.

I got my first camera when I was like eight years old. In this photo my sister is showing off her stuff, you know, toys, Christmas presents, cartoons, drawings... She liked to have her room unorganized.

tbt (2.4.2015)

I think I look dapper in this photo.
I'm wearing a suit and a hat and a bowtie. And I have a cut in my finger.
It was in the elementary school. One day we were asked to dress up like back in the days.
I might have been one of the very few who wore anything special for the day. I can still remember the feeling that I had... a little proud for having the guts to do something different.

tbt (12.3.2015)

With this I want to thank mr. Bruuttus for changing my life forever. You are one special horse, you are.

"All I pay my psychiatrist is the cost of feed and hay, and he'll listen to me any day."

Ku mä olin tappaa itteni: VI luku

Ne ei antanu mulle mun unilääkkeitä. Eikä nukahtamislääkkeitä. Ei antanu, vaik mä itkin ja huusin, ja anelin. Mä olin varma, et ne pilaa mun elämän, ja mä sanoin sen niille. Mut mä menin kuiteski nukkuun jo ennen yheksää, mun oli pakko, ku mun oli väsy. Tai ei mun väsy ollu ilman niitä mun lääkkeitä, mut mä en osannu tehdä enää mitää muuta ku nukkua (ja hinkata kodin ja Kauppahallin väliä). 

Ukko tuli mun viereen sille kirkkaan keltaselle lakanalle. Se tuli aiva mun kylkeen kii ja alko kuorsata. Mä kuuntelin sitä kuorsausta koko yön. Ja silittelin aina välillä sen turkkia. 

Sitä kuorsausta ja tuulen huminaa mä kuuntelin koko yön. Mä en saanu nukutuks, ku ne ei antanu mulle mun lääkkeitä. Se mun siskon mies tuli yöks kattoon telkkaria sinne olkkariin. Se katto telkkaria koko yön. Tai niin se luulee. Mut mä tiiän paremmin. 

Mä kuulin seinäkellon naksutuksen ja olin tulla hulluks, ku en saanu nukutuks. Jos mä oisin ollu kotona, mä oisin ottanu ainaki pari pillerii unilääkettä. Sit mä oisin heränny keskellä yötä ja alkanu tehä remonttia mun kotona. Mä asun sillee jännästi kahessa kerroksessa, joista toka on vanhas hiilikellaris. Siä mä oon keskellä yötä maalaillu seiniä ja tapetoonu. Yhen kerran mä rupesin maalaan niitä yläkerran portaita, keskellä yötä, ku mä olin heränny. Mä maalasin ne portaat ylhäältä alaspäin. Alhaalla mä huomasin, et olin jättäny valot yläkertaan. Sit mä keksin asetella nessuja niille maalatuille askelmille ja kiipesin nessuja pitkin sammuttaan ne valot. 

Vituiks ne rappuset meni mut sainpa valot sammutettua. Sit mä menin takas nukkuun.

#selfie

Happy holidays!

As you can see in the pic I'm still able to pull some sort of a smiley on my face. It's day five doing absolutely nothing but seeing friends, going to the gym, and having long walks with the extended family.

ps do not tell my mom that I post a photo of me wearing b o t h my onesie and t h a t hair piece. My mom didn't let me come out of the car while going for the groceries. I was just wearing my onesie. Doesn't she love me? #don'tsayyourloveiskillingme 

Boxing Day 2014

oh boy!
This Christmas has been unreal. I've gone to the gym, have watched Hunger Games II, have gone for long walks (and almost found myself doing some serious work-related reading). And have been kissed by boxers, and woken up to seeing Ukko's face next to mine.

tbt (4.12.2014)

I've been listening to Pet Shop Boys a lot - not just now but even earlier. I can some how relate to their song called Winner. Not the part where they sing "I've been a loser" but "But don't forget all / The love and laughter / Now the world is at our feet". That's why I want to dedicate this song to my family and friends. It took m e a long time to feel this happy in my life but I'm there now! There is no one thing that I would want any other way. It's amazing how things finally click and you've got all the things that really matter, to you.

ps Unfortunately you are not able to see the green leather jacket that I'm wearing in this picture. I believe it was another party in Flogsta, Uppsala, Sweden (in 2001). There are Ulla, Andre, Dmitri, Marc etc. in the photo.

This is the moment we'll remember

Every day for the rest of our lives

Time may rush us, hurt or love us

But on this day we have arrived

It's been a long time coming

We've been in the running for so long

But now we're on our way

Let the ride just take us

Side by side and make us

See the world through new eyes every day

You're a winner

I'm a winner

This is all happening so fast

You're a winner

I'm a winner

Let's enjoy it all while it lasts

I've been a loser

I've paid my dues

I fought my way up from the ground

Now at this moment

The crowd acclaim us

Will you just listen to that sound

It's been a long time coming

We've been in the running for so long

But now we're on our way

Let the ride just take us

Side by side and make us

See the world through new eyes every day

You're a winner

I'm a winner

This is all happening so fast

You're a winner

I'm a winner

Let's enjoy it all while it lasts

It took us so long

And we worked so hard

We came so far just to compete

But don't forget all

The love and laughter

Now the world is at our feet

Looking back on all the times

We felt downcast

Didn't think we were going anywhere

Just living in the past

But in that desperation

You get inspiration

You're a winner

I'm a winner

This is all happening so fast

You're a winner

I'm a winner

Let's enjoy it all while it lasts

'Cause you're a winner

Took so long

We worked so hard

We came so far just to compete

But don't forget all the love and laughter

Now the world is at our feet

You're a winner

I'm a winner

This is all happening so fast

You're a winner

I'm a winner

Enjoy it while it lasts

'cause you're a winner

Pet Shop Boys: Winner

tbt (27.11.2014)

If this photo was in colors you would actually see the cactus that I'm holding. It was a gift.

Merouan was going home while we were both studying in Uppsala, Sweden. We are standing in the hallway in one of those corridors in Flogsta. That cactus blossomed later, bright pink flowers.

If you see this, Merouan, läget?

tbt (6.11.2014)

It's #tbt again.
This time I had to go way back in the h i s t o r y.
I think this pic was taken in 1997. I had my hair cut right after I got my second High School Diploma, this time in Kurikka, Finland. I'm sitting on my dad's bike. He rebuilt it all by himself. And later sold it to someone in Koskenkorva. My dad thought that that ride didn't run fast enough.

tbt (30.10.2014)

Oh boy!
It's summer, this summer. Or should I say "last summer"? Well, any way, I'm referring to t h a t summer that we had like less than fours months ago here. I'm sunbathing. And my sister's dog, mr. Ukko, is sitting o n me!

We had a nice walk earlier that day. It was so sunny and hot that I felt like sucking some Sun in. I even had a blanket put in the shadow, for mr. Ukko. But, as you can see in the pic, he's sitting on me. There we were: me trying to get some Sun, mr. Ukko wanting to sit on me.
Thoughts?

Onnea, Ukko!

Siskonpoika, pappa Ukko, täytti eilen kahdeksan vuotta. Merkkipäivää juhlittiin "matkoilla".

tbt (2.10.2014)

It's me!
It's my two teeth!
And my big (huge!) smile.

My mom told me that I didn't like to just sit down and have my pictures taken when I was a kid. *) That's why you cannot see the summer hat my mom knitted me in the picture (and she knitted it especially for that special day in my (special) life). I still have that dress hanging in my closet at my parents. **) But we haven't seen that hat ever since.

*) This applies to my day-to-day life even today...
**) I can show it if you like.

tbt (21.8.2014)

It's obviously me and mr. Ukko, my nephew.
Have you ever sniffed at a dog? Maybe two dogs at the same time? Did you notice that dogs smell different? I love sniffing mr. Ukko. He's got the best dog smell that I know. And his fur feels like velvet.

tbt (29.5.2014)

We are walking on Lake Näsijärvi a couple of winters ago (19.2.2012).
It's just snow, ice, snow shoes.
And a pair of Uggs.
And mr. Ukko.

ps can you, just by having a quick look at the photo, say that I'm as depressed as one can be in his / her life? Well, believe me. A month prior to walking on snow shoes I almost committed suicide. But, hey, it's #tbt. I've never been this happy in my life before (well, maybe on some occasions). I'm, like, living my life to the fullest. I've found that inner peace in me. And that's all that matters - to me.

tbt (22.5.2014)

This is my most precious picture.
It's me and mr. Ukko in December, 2006.
I love you!

High up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Coldplay: Fix You

Ku mä olin tappaa itteni: V luku

Mä nappasin untsikan sen yöasun päälle. Mä olin kai osaltaan tyytyväinen, et joku sano, mitä mun pitää tehä. Eikä mulla ollu muuta vaihtoehtoa, ku en pystyny puhumaankaan, ku suuta kuivas niin vitusti. Sisko tais pakata hammasharjan reppuun. Siskon mies otti ne lääkkeet, mä laiton kengät jalkaan ja me lähettiin niille. Taidettiin näyttää aika koomisilta: mä hapuilin eteenpäin yöasus ja untsikas, sisko poras. Muistin kuitenki sammuttaa valot ja varmistaa, et laitoin välioven kii. Ettei ne joulutähdet saa kylmää ja vilustu.

Mä en muista mitää siitä matkasta mun siskolle ja sen miehelle. Niillä on koira, Ukko. Ukko on maailman paras koira, se on mun lapsi. Mä tykkään Ukosta enemmän ku monesta muusta, ilman Ukkoo mä en varmaan ees olis täs kirjottamas tätä mun tarinaa. Ukko on hauska koira, se on muuten bokseri. Sellanen ruttuturpainen hännän heiluttaja tai välillä mä kyl luulen, et se häntä heiluttaa sitä koiraa. Jos se olis ihminen, se olis hassuttelija ja sais kaikki hyvälle tuulelle. Mut se on myös aika ittetietonen ja vieraita kohtaan pidättyväinen. Se on joskus aika hauskaa, ku ihmiset huiskii Ukkoon päin ja yrittää silittää sitä. Mut Ukko ei anna kenen tahansa koskee itteensä, edes sillai puolivahingos. Ei se anna. Mut mun se antaa tehä mitä mä haluun, se luottaa muhun.

Ukko odotti meitä, ku me päästiin mun siskolle ja sen miehelle. Mä olin niin ilonen, ku mä näin sen. Se ottaa mut aina vastaan ku kauan kaivatun ystävän, sille ei merkkaa mitää, vaiks mä oisin hiihtänyt niis samois harmais verkkareis viikkokaupalla.

Mulle tehtiin peti olkkarin lattialle. Mä tuun loppuelämän muistaan sen kirkkaan keltasen lakanan, siitä tuli mun alue. Koska mä olin jo pitkään nukkunu suurimman osan mun elämästä, mulla oli kamala tarve päästä nukkuun siäki. Kello oli ehkä kaheksan, ehkä vähemmän. Mun siskon mies ihmetteli, miks mä meen nukkuun niin aikasin. Mä sanoin et mua väsyttää.

tbt (15.5.2014)

Gosh!
I didn't get too much of sleep last night but still wanted to get you all into my #tbt.
And it doesn't go too far in the history but last night!

Nyt väsyttää! Hippailtiin eilen maailman parhaan ystävän kanssa keikalla - eikä millä tahansa keikalla vaan Weeping Willowsin keikalla. Osa kuvista on sensuroitu, osa kuvista palauttaa takaisin eilisen tunnelmiin, joista myöhemmin.

#another #day #no #specs #badhairday #ww

#ww #weepingwillows #klubi #tampere

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"It takes a strong a heart to love

Each time you fall I lift you up

I helped you cover up the pain

I will make you feel beautiful again!"

Weeping Willows: It Takes a Strong a Heart to Love

Happy Birthday, Marika!

This pic tells more than thousand words.

Happy birthday, my baby sis!

Hyvää syntymäpäivää, Marsu!

Joo-o, tiedetään! Kun sinä synnyit, aurinko paistoi täydeltä terältään ja oli äitienpäivä. Kun taas minä putkahdin maailmaan, myrskysi. Ja myrskysin. Sairaanhoitaja oli minut nähdessään todennut: "Onpa kiukkuinen vauva!" Say no more...

tbt (1.5.2014)

It's me and mr. Ukko two years ago - sitting on a pier. It's Labour Day, and I seem to be enjoying a cold beer. What do you think about my shades? LOVE!

Happy Labour Day!